Wednesday, July 22, 2015

I felt beautiful inside



fiending for pizza this evening, i ran to the joint still open after nine. loitering outside were tall and golden men of the basketball team of a catholic university by the edge of our neighborhood.  i shirked to the greasy spoon a block away.  

“every one gorgeous comes out during the warm days,” a friend often tells me.  it is so racking, this summer living.  no other time reminds me more of my inadequacies.

the mexican narco-gangster legend, el chapo guzman, during his first stint in prison, constantly wrote gushy love letters to a female inmate zulema.  “my love, i dreamed of you last night.  it was so real that when i woke up, i felt beautiful inside.”